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'Ello!

Welcome to 2010! I havent updated this thing in...years! :D but, I thought it would be a great way of organizing my artwork && upcoming website (that I might save money for but am thinking of just getting a free account - shrug - )

Does anyone else use this thing anymore?

Well, for updates sake...I am still in love w/ Jeremy <3 3 years now! wow. Annnnnnnd.
I'm still drawing <3 whoo whoo! Well now....

I said I was going to use this thing for organizing and I am. Hopefully I remember how to lj-cut (hahaha)

Did I mention I am a HUGE taylor swift fan now?

<3

Current Mood:
busy busy
Current Music:
Taylor Swift
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So, what? I barely have any time to write in my personal journal...which feels...well, more personal. But I just kinda wanted to sketch this out in case I ever forget that he sang to me and that we're both going to have wings (tattoos) on our backs.

All because of you.

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Its really weird going to deviantart and livejournal now that I've kind of moved on...but fun to. I just want you to know that Im enjoying life to the fullest right now. I am very much so in love with it. Ill be back but...take care everyone!!

pss: the new dnangel art is gorgeous. not a big surprise there, but I just thought I'd let everyone know!

Current Mood:
cheerful cheerful
Current Music:
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessionals
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So...life has been very relaxed since I moved out of my house. I love it. Im enjoying every minute of it. I think really Im just enjoying being at Jere's house so much. I even have talked to his brother Chris. WOW. its amazing.

Me & Savanna have been getting along. So have me & everyone else...watched Cloverfield with Ben, Esther, my sister, and Jeremy the other night. I really, really, really liked that movie. everyone was pissed about the end but i was kind of fucking in love with it. its so sweet & tragic...not to mention that really cool thing you get to see at the end =]. idk, alot of dying...but very sweet love story behind it I think.

I dont know. everythings so different....I wonder whats going to happen to me now. its a scary but fun thought. =]. i love life, and Im going to enjoy it.

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and I could see me spending the rest of my life with you
thank you for understanding me;
I was completely taken off guard & surprised.
I promise to be happy.
=].
Current Mood:
cheerful cheerful
Current Music:
Avenged Sevenfold/ Leona Lewis
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With this I give you everything. Heart, body, and soul.

Watching Becky exchange vows today took my breath away.
Current Mood:
touched touched
Current Music:
Evans Blue
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Whoa, I almost fell asleep with my head on my desk...thats crazy. I've been super tired lately. You'd think that with graduation over, I'd be able to sleep in at least one day but nooooooooo. DX. Im apartment-browsing today, my mom knows just how to rile me up & piss me off to get me going =]. <3. Alot of people are calling in to work today, which means I'm probably going to get called in to go to work... but as far as people calling my phone and trying to get me to replace them? Fuck that shit, Im not answering that phone for anyone!!!

Gotta go get my keys from Jeremy. Later! <3

Current Mood:
sleepy sleepy
Current Music:
Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis
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FACT: Deana needs to read instructions BEFORE she plays with her new toys.
Current Mood:
cheerful cheerful
Current Music:
IPOD touch!
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I was going to write this long, emotional, and sentimental journal entry about ....life, because graduation is in but only a few hours, but...I think Im just too far into disbelief. My mouth is hanging open slightly, my eyes are wide, and Im just sitting here...thinking. On everything.
So...I guess all I'll say is this. I thank God everyday that I fell in love. I fell in love with Jeremy, with my old friends, with my new ones, with my new life. I pray he blesses it and the people in it even more so with the next few years. Honestly? This doesnt feel real. Like I was supposed to die before any of this happened. Don't blink, its all going to be gone soon. I love you Jeremy Michael Cowell. I love you, my friends who are actually my family. I love you, dad. Thank God you're all here, I wouldnt have made it this far without any of you...I... ): I dont know what to say. Or do. I guess...sleep then?

Goodbye.
Current Mood:
blank blank
Current Music:
Photograph - Nickelback
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Leona Lewis's song makes me think of Heather & Mark, me & Jeremy.... I feel so sorry for Heather sometimes. She really, really loves Mark but...hm. I know she does I can tell. I understand her in that way, a little bit.

Oh MAN. today was SO FREAKIN SAD! I had no idea I would miss that school so much, it hit me on the last day... ): Im going to miss everyone. I made Amber and Ava cry...and Steven gave me the biggest hug in the world... Marc acted like my best friend all day...I told Ez "I <3 U" when I left lol...it was so sad. Graduation...dear God I am going to freak out all night before / all day.

Anyways, I just worked an 8 hour shift. Im going to Esther & Amber's grad parties tomorow =]. AND Im shopping for Jeremy's gift/ cards (for my other boys & girls). I really want to find Jeremy a one-wing necklace like he had before, except not cheap and engrave something on it...but maybe I'll just have to settle with a guitar pick or something. Which reminds me, apparently my fender necklace is turning my neck blueish. LOL SWEEEEEET. <3

I dont know...Im not very tired, I just hurt EVERYWHERE Because I worked an 8 hour shift no breaks today. omg I think Im in love with Jesse. LOL. He is such a sweetheart! He was amused to no end when Savanna told him I used to think he was a hardass. But seriously, a rare guy in this city full of trash. LOVE IT! More rare guys! & Nick/Walter were being funny =]. Dean...hehe! AND MY JEREMY WAS THERE <3 so of course it was a great night! (oh, Savy & Janie too ^__^/ Mandy & Kelsey) But...I dont know, I just feel like going to sleep and dreaming of good things right now.
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And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Current Mood:
exhausted exhausted
Current Music:
Leona Lewis / Hey Jude
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